Tuesday, November 16, 2010

"GOD, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform... I'll give you exactly 15 min."

I had to share this. I would love to have the courage to do this to people that say stupid things sometimes.


If you don't know GOD, don't make stupid remarks!!!!!!
A United States Marine was taking some college courses
between assignments. He had completed 20 missions in Iraq and
Afghanistan . One of the courses had a professor who
was an avowed athei...st, and a member of the ACLU.
One day the professor shocked the class when he came in.
He looked to the ceiling and flatly stated, "GOD, if you are real, then
I want you to knock me off this platform... I'll give you exactly 15
min." The lecture room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. Ten minutes
went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am GOD, I'm still
waiting." It got down to the last couple of minutes when the Marine got out of his chair, went up to the professor, and cold-cocked him; knocking him off the platform. The professor was out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat there, silently. The other students were shocked and stunned, and sat there
looking on in silence. The professor eventually came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What in the world is the matter with you? Why did you do that?" The Marine calmly replied,
"GOD was too busy today protecting America's
soldiers who are protecting your right to say stupid
stuff and act like an idiot. So He sent me." The classroom erupted in cheers!

Monday, November 15, 2010

Why do I keep dreaming about Dad?

This is a rather personal post. But I guess this is what Blogging is about. My Dad died almost half my life ago in 1988.  We were not close. He had anger issues. If you ask my sisters and I each of us will say we each got the worst of it. But of course, I am sure I did. They had each other. They moved out and went to college when he got all ramped up on me.  Please understand I go to great pains to be accurate in what I say. Which is to say, I will not lie or embellish here to make a good story.  I don't have to, it wrote it's self.  

So the past ten years or so I have had dreams about my dear old dad almost weekly. Never really good dreams. Many about me standing up to him, something I could not do in life but once. Persistent,  relentless dreams about him.  Which makes me ask the question, why do I keep dreaming about Dad?

Tonight was particularly disturbing. I had to watch him die. Again. But not the way I watched him die in 1988. The dream is already fading the way that dreams do, leaving only that imprint of discomfort of knowing that something bad happened. Like a car had rolled on your foot. The mark is there and the pain, but the car is clearly gone.  In 88' he contracted brain cancer and died very quickly. I was a Paramedic and worked in Portland. I was the only one of the children that lived in Oregon and because of that had to deal with his medical and legal issues. I was 25 and not really prepared for something like this. But I thought at the time I was. I was ready for the medical end of it. If it had not been for me we may not have known it was cancer nearly as early as we did. That is a story for another time. But I was not ready to take on this responsibility alone and I was alone.  My wife at the time had gone through her own fathers death several years before and was of little support to me. She even tried to convince me that since my Dad was unconscious there was no point in going down and seeing him every day.  My mother was in the area but they had just gone through a five year very painful divorce. She was concerned but not to the degree we were. 

And why were we? Relatives would say, "because he was a good man", Bull shit, you were not there. My sisters and I went through hell growing up. Ever had a hammer thrown at your head, or a (insert any tool), or an eight foot baseboard heater?  Tossed down a flight of stairs? Stomped on by size 11 shoes with the feet in them because you were ten minutes late from telling the brick layer its time to wake up? (he, the brick layer, offered me coffee and told me stories about my dad and grandpa hunting in colorado. It was a great moment, till I walked back home.)

So you are most likely thinking, dude you need counseling.  Done it, eight years worth.  I wanted to make sure I was not like him and I am not. I do not yell or throw things. I have never hit my wife and never will. I am so not him. I have tried to look at other sides of him. Like his sense of humor. Which he had one. A pretty funny one. Not sure why he never brought it home, but he did have one. Me, my sisters and our children all have one. So I have accepted other parts of him other then the monster we all grew up with. 

So why am I still dreaming about Dad.  I am tired about this. I am tired of watching him die in a hundred different ways. I want to move on. So I guess in reading my post over again, is I haven't moved on. Well I am not going to solve it tonight. 

Dad, go away. You died already. Get over it and move on. 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Critics Still Wrong on What’s Driving Deficits in Coming Years — Center on Budget and Policy Priorities

Critics Still Wrong on What’s Driving Deficits in Coming Years — Center on Budget and Policy Priorities

So this article does a very good job at spelling out why President Bush's policies created or to be more accurate will create an 8 trillion dollar deficit over the next decade. That any president elected would have had to deal with this mess.  Good Read.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Christopher Kliks's Blog

Tonight, not being able to sleep again. I reached over to check the time on my iphone. As what normally happens on my iphone something other than what I expected comes up on the screen. Which this time was ok. It was a saved website that I had not gotten around to looking at yet, but since I was not sleeping, I took the time to read what I could on that huge iphone screen.  What caught my eye was a blog posting of a friend of mine that I have not seen in over twenty years.  Christopher had done some ride time with us on the ambulance to create a video for the company as an advertisement. Great video, long story, bad ending.  So I had lost touch with Chris until this year and we have been playing phone tag and still have not been able to talk yet.  I read the blog entry that came up and was so touched that I had to bring it up here. I am going to put the link here and encourage everyone to read his blog. Here is an excerpt from one of his postings where he is talking about Babe his dog that had just passed away:

"I don’t know what’s going to happen next, none of us does.  What I do know is that life is abundant with miracles if we are present to recognize them. Usually they occur right under our noses.  It doesn’t feel that way at the moment, yet Babe taught me by her living example to be In the present.  Trust in the Unseen, to be Fearless even when afraid, Love unconditionally, and most of all to suit up, show up and do your job.  Do the next thing.  Thats was all you had to concern yourself with in Babe’s opinion, and she walked her talk. Do the next thing.  Keep your word. Lets get going.  That’s what Babe would say to me now."






Thursday, November 11, 2010

Re:Vancouver Fire Department? Spock would say this is illogical.

Yesterday afternoon I was putting gas in my car. Something that I enjoy less and less. Even though we purchased a “fuel efficient” car it seems to be less efficient and more hungry as time goes by. So as I smelled my money going into the gas tank I heard the all to familiar sound of a fire truck siren coming from a distance making everyone aware that they were on their way to some sort of life threatening emergency or in this case a huge fire that must have been in a very tall building. As the truck came up to the intersection all the lights turned in it's favor thanks to the system on the emergency vehicles that automatically changes lights on approach to green so they do not have to fight a red light. I wish we had that when I was a paramedic pretty cool toy. The truck a bright shiny red very long 2007 Pearce XT tractor-drawn ladder truck is a marvel to be seen. It is so long that it requires a driver in the back to steer the back end or tiller to assist the truck in making turns. It is truly a wonderful work of craftsmanship. But this post is not about the cool toy to change lights, or the cool paint, or how fantastic the truck is maintained, or how well the man in the back is able to drive in sync with the engineer in the front. No it is not about that at all. What it is about is why is this truck here at all.

A 100 foot ladder will cover a very tall building. Not many tall buildings in east clark county. Vancouver Fire has two of these trucks. At a cost of just over $1,000,000 each. Plus the up keep on these trucks is not cheap. The following estimate is from another department that owns very similar trucks.


So, at some point in the past Vancouver fire made the argument that they needed these trucks and the people bought their argument and the trucks. Ok, I understand that. Fire Departments love their new trucks. However, I think that trucks like these should not be used on just any calls. These are very expensive trucks, They should only be used on Fire or calls in which there is a high degree of suspicion that a ladder is going to be needed. Remember that not many buildings in east county are more than three storys. These trucks should not be running medical calls which is the majority of the calls that the fire department runs. These are calls that fire department provides first responder services and does not transport. They provide care for about 4-5 minutes until AMR arrives and then they turn over care to the AMR Paramedics and help them load the patients into the ambulance and then they go back to their station. Now don't get me wrong here. I am not saying in any way that Firemen are not needed. They provide a very necessary service. They put their lives on the line every day. (So do AMR paramedics, but no one ever praises them.) What I am saying is park the million dollar truck and only use it when you need it. It will last longer that way. Why make the people of this county have to buy another one in a few years because this one is worn out and you want a new one now. Hood River Fire Department replaced its fire truck in 1983. The last time it had been replace was in the 60's because of low miles. They do not take the truck to medical calls, they took the ambulance and volunteers took their own cars thus the fire truck only had 6500 miles on it when it came time to replace it. Most of the miles were it's trip from back east when it was purchased.


The Fire Department will tell you that not taking that ladder truck with them to the minor calls will prevent them from having it from the "major" call that may come in while they are away from the station.  Or that they can not afford to hire fire personnel to man a rescue unit during these tough economic times.  Yet, let's remember that there are no buildings in east county that warrant a ladder truck of that size, so actually the prudent thing to do is to put a regular ladder truck at the station that houses the tiller truck and make the tiller truck a secondary response vehicle. This would put miles on a much less expensive vehicle that is more appropriate to the type of work that will be asked of it.  As for the argument of not enough money to hire more staff. Lets look to the way Vancouver Fire handles their money.


They purchased and built Pacific Park Fire Station 10, Northeast 164th Avenue and 15th Street, to the cost of at least $3 million. In December of 2007 Don Bivins said that this new station would shave 57 seconds off of the average response times of 5 minutes. Ok, not a huge bang for your buck, but still not too shabby.  Then the station opened this year and at nearly the same moment they announced they were shutting down station 6, 7110 N.E. 63rd St. due to budget cut backs. So Don Bivins, remember Don? He promised 57 seconds off of the 5 min response times? He reported that now the loss of Station 6 is going to cause a 2.5 min increase in response times in the area of station 6 response district and 30 seconds to the entire vancouver central response area.  So we have this really pretty fire station where that will cut 57 seconds off of response times, and we are closing a station that is adding 2.5 min to response times. Spock would say that is illogical.  


So lets go back to that million dollar ladder truck. Should we be driving it all over town and putting miles on it or should we park it and make it a secondary response vehical so in two to three years when it needs work the fire department doesn't come to us and say, we need another one, look, we needed it so much we wore it out. I say, NO, Lets use common sense. 

So my recommendation? Put a ladder truck that we most likely already have at the station with the tiller and run it on the calls and only break out the tiller when we magically pop out a 7 story building in East county somewhere that needs it.



Friday, November 5, 2010

"It's none of your business"

Today I went to the grocery store to get some food. Seems like the thing to do at a grocery store. While looking for a parking spot a woman in a white SUV that was in front of me, coming towards me, had made it known that she wanted the spot in front of me that had just become available. That was fine, I was in no hurry so I motioned to her that it was hers, and I waited for her to take the spot since there was a car stopped in front of me. She took the spot and had to back up a few times to get the vehicle square in the spot. While doing so, she nearly hit two elderly people that were walking past her spot that were unaware that she was still trying to park. They had to put a hand up to brace themselves in defense of the cars approach. They were able to continue on without incident and all was well. I parked my car and as I walked in passed by the owner of the SUV as she got out of the car. I asked her if she was aware of the near miss. I was not prepared for the response I was received from her. She told me that she was and that it was none of my %$#@ business. I was really taken back by the overly defensive response. I had not accused her or attacked her about her driving. I explained to her that my concern was that it really is everyones business when something like this happens. We all need to look out for each other. If no one pointed it out to her and she was unaware, maybe next time it may be a child that she backs over. She again pointed out that it was none of my @%$@ business and to butt out. I feel it is important for all of us to watch out for each other to protect those that can not protect themselves, to not react with anger when someone points out that you have made a mistake. We have all made them. To admit that you have made a mistake and take responsibility for it shows a greater degree of character than to trying to tell people it is none of there business.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Is President Obama spending too much money?

 The media are the ones that keep telling us that President Obama is spending our money and we are getting nothing for it when reality is quite different. He spent half the money to get us out of the recession than what was spent to get us out of the s&l scandal which was a much smaller crisis. Which means that we paid more, by 2, 4 trillion dollars to make that go away, a smaller problem than the recession that he was handed by Bush. Bush that was handed a economy that was in the black and put it 8 trillion in debit by spending and giving tax cuts in a time of war. This is something that no president has ever done. You don't pay for a war by passing it along to your grandchildren. A war that he lied about to get into. No WMD, No terrorist connections with Saddam. All the reasons he gave were proven to be false. During this he stalled the war he should have been fighting, Afghanistan. For 7 years he did almost nothing there. Then when President Obama took over people complained after one year that he had not accomplished anything there. Again, no one says anything about the wasted 7 years before. The 7 years that the enemy had to move about to other countries. Lets not point the finger at Obama because he is in office, Lets point the finger where it belongs. President Bush stated before 9/11 that he felt that terrorism was not a priority for his administration. This was with in four weeks of the attacks. So, yes President Obama has spent money. Money to get us out of the mess that President Bush put us in. Any one that would have been elected would have had to. Remember part of that money, people forget, is that the $700 Billion bail out for the financial institutes was started by President Bush, not President Obama.